It has been almost four months since I last blogged here. I have been busy with life and doing a lot of reflection, reading, studying and learning – then this happened –
So it is a week before Christmas and I lost my job. I was devastated. It has been more than 25 years since I have been unemployed and I have never been terminated from employment before now. It was through no fault of my own. My employer had to downsize. I was simply one of about 30 or so people that were let go.
Initially, I was in shock, my brain was numb and all at once I was sad, fearful, anxious and even a bit happy? I had been collecting a paycheck but the position wasn’t as fulfilling as would have liked. I had some security, so I thought. But is there such a thing nowadays as job security? It isn’t the same world that my parents worked and lived in. In that world people had their jobs for life sometimes, with benefits, and even a pension. No more.
It has taken me a few days to rebound, but I am a fighter, not just a survivor, but a warrior. I cried, I stressed out, and I worried for a day or so off and on. I was also a bit relieved and realized this could be a blessing in disguise. Sure things could be easy but I know it is only through the difficult times that I have truly grown and excelled. I rise to the task at hand.
I got busy with my finances and accounts so I might weather the potential storm. I battened down the hatches and now I am reviewing my options and looking at this as a great opportunity.
I don’t want to just “make a living” anymore. I want to live my life with meaning. Now is a turning point that was thrust upon me. Possibly because God knew I may not have the strength to make new choices or take new directions without a little fire lit under my behind. I’m stubborn like that and I had become apathetic and complacent.
Now with the fire lit I will rise to the occasion and pursue my passions with purpose.
I Corinthians 3:13
their work will be shown for what it is, because the Day will bring it to light. It will be revealed with fire, and the fire will test the quality of each person’s work.